Before

It’s supposed to be the calm before the storm, right?

I dunno, as usual. I’ll probably be on the plane in roughly 7 hours, if nothing goes wrong, and I’m not even remotely excited, yet. Packing took considerably less time then I imagined, and the backpack, for now, looks imposing. Right now, I’m also feeling a little reluctant and hesitant to go forward, but I just need to take the deep breath, and plunge in. No turning back at this point of time now anyway.

Thursday was also the maiden meeting for the Ogl’s, kinda weird that none of the hype from that day managed to carry on until now. All I can say is, it ain’t fun pretending to be enthuiastic. Either you are, or you’ll suffer trying to look that way. I wasn’t as crazy as I was during O2, which admittedly was the completely wrong time to do so, but then again, maybe it’s the new people and new surroundings; I barely know the group as of now, but I’ll give it some time. :/ Just need a little confidence.

The last thing I need to do is to become this quiet little bugger and waste the entire time there. See ya’ll(but then again, wordpress stats show only ghosts come here) in 10 days.

Those wasted years
Can only sear

Hoe, such ironic reversal, I do remember

Release

5 minutes was all it took. Now PW, as the incarnation that we know of, is gone. It’s like there was so much build up and nerves getting jangled going to the day itself, that it kinda was an anti-climax of itself, so much so that it was not really worth popping champagne over, for me. I even managed to speed crap the InR in like 10 minutes. :V

Basically, in all theory, that’s J1. Kinda a fast year, but doesn’t it feel exactly the same time? Aspirations, procrastinations, dreaming or even dreading the next 12 months now. From the start until now, it was always a “I’ll catch up” later year for me, and I practically never got out of the holiday mood. Guess that’s kind of feeling a ridiculously long break of stoning would do to you.

Still, at least for once, I have events to look forward to in the holidays. OCIP, Orientation 2009′, maybe even the trainings, and can’t forget the camp(s) which I hope somebody better inform us of soon. And I was even contemplating grabbing a job or something to while away time. Blargh, probably find something slacky, for all I know, I may just burn myself out, but then again, that’s getting speculative.

Cheers to the end of the Academic year of 2008′, was kinda bullshitting through life for me, but it’s now time for your yearly scheduled commercial breaks. I think I’ll delay my 2009 resolutions until it -really- is 2009, but until then, lets that I can end this year with something worthwhile.

Then again, shit always happens.

For only the love of my life
Would possess the key
That can unlock these chains and set me free

Cry

My cry.

Moving

Moving on…

Well, I probably won’t be touching chinese for the rest of my life after today’s paper. A part of me says that I should do this in chinese as probably my last day writing properly structured chinese sentences. The other part is shouting that I’m a lame ass for even thinking such a thing and I should stop being dumb. The latter part makes much more sense.

With probably only PW the only matter left looming over the not too distant horizon, it probably makes sense that the extra time causes you to realise other glaring problems which you probably would have missed. Or rather, I.

Right now, all I’m trying to do is fill up my free time during the December holidays, the last thing I need is to be wasting myself at home once again, as with every year. OCIP, CCA, probably an attachment that is still tentative. and camps. Hopefully, this year end would be more meaningful and well spent then the previous 16 combined.

Till then, I’ll be seeing you on the 6th Nov for my PW bonfire. Oh wait, I&R, 7th, then.

Mea culpa, mea culpa.  And all I wanted to do was to save the answer for when it really mattered.